This will be quick - I've got to get a munchkin ready for a party in 30 minutes...
My first Freestyle Libre arrived in the post on Friday. It's currently sat in its partially opened boxes on my sofa. I'll probably take the plunge this evening - but right now, I'm filled with a sense of apprehension.
Not just because of the intimidating packaging (and thanks to those of you who've reassured me), but more because I'm not sure why I've got one.
There's no doubt it's popular among the online community - I've seen plenty of tweets and blogs about the virtues of it's quasi-CGM ability, and I've met a few people in real life who are incredibly complimentary about it too.
But I know my control is actually pretty good overall. And I know I have the moderately addictive personality that could mean I can't just use two sensors and revert to conventional testing. I've held off for so long because I want to make sure I'm going to use if for the right reasons for me.
Regardless of all the basal testing I've done, I know that at some point between 10 and 11am, my BG takes a dip. Not always a huge one, but something strange happens around then and I'm hoping I can start to visualise what that is.
I also do a lot of exercise, and whilst I've worked hard to be able to manage my diabetes and run as much as I do, I've got a genuine curiosity about what happens to my BG whilst I exercise. Again, the Libre should help me out there.
Lastly, I'll have some evenings where I eat late, and things don't behave in the way the usually do. Last night was a prime example, where, despite meticulous carb counting and appropriate insulin delivery, I woke up around 16.5. Not much cop is it? Hopefully I can understand how that happens, so I can learn what to do about it in the future.
What I don't want to do is become someone who chases flat lines on a graph with temporary basal rates and huge doses of insulin. I know from DAFNE that a more patient and informed approach is more likely to give better results and understanding in the longer term.
As you may know, I got to listen in on a few sessions at the Association of Children's Diabetes Clinicians conference on Friday, and two talks there really captured my attention.
Firstly, Dr Peter Adolfsson talk about how, in his native Sweden, patients (particularly paediatric patients) are introduced to continuous glucose monitoring before they start pump therapy. Indeed it turns out, not all patients want or need pump therapy once they've understood how the glucose reacts to different situations. This gave me hope I was making the right decision with a Libre.
The second talk was from Prof. Kath Barnard, who spoke brilliantly (and candidly) about the lack of psychosocial support for people using diabetes technology like CGM, and how many that self fund, do so and ignore a lot of the information they receive (e.g. cancelling/ignoring alarms from devices). This made me feel more cautious with the Libre.
Am I getting myself into something I fully understand that will give me the information I want, without changing my existing attitude and approach to managing diabetes? In short, I don't know. But there's probably only one way to find out...